Changes of me...

from year 1999-mid2003, i have a 'special' attidude, i din talk to girl at all..may b i just think that i hv nothing to talk gua..hehe.. for this few years i mention, no words from me to girl, if hv also may b not more than 10words in a year..but when the time arrive, an angel have changes me..who are my x-girlfriend, Pei Zhen..she hv changes me overall( b4 we r in relationship)..from that time i have dare to talk to girl n dare to close to girl..hehe,weird right? she not change me in this matter only but also make me more care about ppl, love children n other useful 'method' in social life.. but when i was with her (now only in relationship), i din talk to girl(the 'things' comes again) even my own classmates..because i know how to behave myslef at that time..no longer playful or chit chat with them,if yes also, just few words i will do.. so thats why my girl classmates say me that im cool, emo, and 'sombong'...but i 'eat' all the words,i admit..but after 1 year, our relationship ended, i was so sad, i really cant take it..i always question myself, why bad things always happen to me? at that time i have no mood, cant sleep, eat less( good time for keep fit) and become drunken master for about 1week..i really want to let go all my things just to be with her but all is too late already...after that i have to open my mind to think positive, i want to be a useful ppl in the future so that i can take care of my family.. so at last i hv what i want to hv, means i have my own now..she really changes me much, without her i dun think so i can continue until university n be a cheerful ppl...Thanks to Her. i will always remember u..

My Lifes...

my lifes? what u know by 'my lifes' this words? for me my lifes means how u going to utilise yr life when u r alive..study? working? enjoy? its depends on individual,,for me i not really know my life actually, i feel that my lifes is just floating here n there..seems lk not direct..but i know wat im floating...so far im still study in university, u know la,university life..assignment, project, presentation, mid-term, FINAL EXAM n most important things yamcha..haha.. so i think that we r not in real world, we just study n study n study..nothing to do unless study..so i just gain knowledge in university n experience it in real world..each ppl hv their own thinking, u cannot related it as all have the same thinking as u..so wat i try to say is based on my opinion.. i know u may not agree with me but i can accept yr opinion.. many years ago, i can see that my lifes is better than now, when i was in form5(2003), 5S4, wow,our class is like theme park or funfair, we all guys play around and our teacher are very nice as nice as my classmates..everyday is 'war' in our class..i can still remember the moments..i really miss that year.. i hope i can be the year 2003 forever..love u all guys... but now,my lifes full of 'words' n books n stress..actually i not really lk this lifes, it seems that i hv to force myself to study to gain knowledge..no freedom at all.. i not really understand why our world is lk this.. hope 1 day i can find out what i want to know... :-)

Introduction

hi, im Jun..some ppl call me Ah Hu, Fujun, Jun, 'Hoi' and macam macam la..
Actually, i dun know why i create this blog..may b i think that only here i can 'vomit' out what i have keep all this long n only here i can keep my secret( not really safe actually)...i have been try to speak out my problems (not really big problems) but it doesnt work..so i just try this blog to see whether it helps me or not...if u find out my blog then i can say that u r the lucky one coz i din tell my friends about this blog, is not a public blog, is just for my own where i can refer back as my memory..so if u read this, u r the lucky one..may b some will read coz i trust them n gv them my address..
Actually, i hate to blog, everytime when i saw ppl blog, i will think that, 'wah,u hv so many think to say until have to blog ar? why dont u just tell ppl that u trust or close to u..' i think that blog may b dangerous( b4 i create this account) because ppl all around the world can read yr article..yr 'things' been known all around the world..but now no more, i hv accept this blog to 'vomit' what i hv keep this long...thanks to this blogger..