Changes of me...

from year 1999-mid2003, i have a 'special' attidude, i din talk to girl at all..may b i just think that i hv nothing to talk gua..hehe.. for this few years i mention, no words from me to girl, if hv also may b not more than 10words in a year..but when the time arrive, an angel have changes me..who are my x-girlfriend, Pei Zhen..she hv changes me overall( b4 we r in relationship)..from that time i have dare to talk to girl n dare to close to girl..hehe,weird right? she not change me in this matter only but also make me more care about ppl, love children n other useful 'method' in social life.. but when i was with her (now only in relationship), i din talk to girl(the 'things' comes again) even my own classmates..because i know how to behave myslef at that time..no longer playful or chit chat with them,if yes also, just few words i will do.. so thats why my girl classmates say me that im cool, emo, and 'sombong'...but i 'eat' all the words,i admit..but after 1 year, our relationship ended, i was so sad, i really cant take it..i always question myself, why bad things always happen to me? at that time i have no mood, cant sleep, eat less( good time for keep fit) and become drunken master for about 1week..i really want to let go all my things just to be with her but all is too late already...after that i have to open my mind to think positive, i want to be a useful ppl in the future so that i can take care of my family.. so at last i hv what i want to hv, means i have my own now..she really changes me much, without her i dun think so i can continue until university n be a cheerful ppl...Thanks to Her. i will always remember u..